Random Thoughts 18
Posted: Sun Jan 28, 2007 6:15 pm
Sorry, this is a short update. More to follow.
I decided I would not let her know what I was feeling inside and returned her icy gaze. Patting her lumpy diaper I said, “Maybe so, however it’s my turn now.” She started to drift a little as the sleeping pills we ground into her bottle started taking effect. She really was incredibly beautiful made more so by the vulnerability sleep imposed on her.
I stood there for an hour watching her sleep. Mandy came into the room after a while wondering what had happened to me. She kept vigil with me for a while, staring at the lovely Mona. “So, um, what is your next move then?” she asked. I told her I had no idea. For now I was just living in the moment. “She made it clear to me that her intent had been to break me down, make me be resigned to a life of her in charge and my just accepting what she did to me with out complaint. She was really trying to make me a baby again. I wanted her to know that I will not just submit and I have accomplished that. From here on it’s just a matter of enjoying it until it’s over. The one card I have to play yet is Sandy. I am betting that Mona would do just about anything to make sure that Sandy doesn’t see her this way. She'll threaten me with god knows what but I think she will, in the end, make a deal with me to release her before Sandy gets home.”
Mandy smiled and said, “You know, one night when they were talking I heard Mona say to her that she wouldn’t be caught dead doing what you do, meaning the diaper play, and found it all distasteful, except as a means to control you. So you may just be right.” I nodded and said, “I think we will find out by how the level of threats go up as we get closer to the time Sandy comes home. “
In the morning, Sandy called and asked to speak to Mona. I told she was all tied up at the moment. Considering the nature of their and our relationship, I was very surprised she didn’t read anything in to it. We talked about how her meetings were going and she said they were almost called off today due to some legal wrangling the client was doing and she wished they had been. She would have liked to come home early and surprise us. This gave me a great idea and I hurried the conversation along so I could try it out. We said our good byes and I rushed to the nursery to try it out.
I found Mona awake and in a foul mood. Her diaper was nearly bursting with the load she had deposited there and I couldn’t help myself, I just stood there and smiled. Remembering the nasty condition she had let me get into on many previous occasions, I felt vindicated. It was time to spring my little lie on her, “Good morning sleepy baby. I just got off the phone with Sandy, she’s on her way home cause they cancelled her meetings, she should be able to change you when she arrives!” I said with a cheerful grin.
I think I was right on the mark. She nearly screamed at me, “SHE WILL NOT! You will let me go this minute, “ her tone softening, “please, don’t do this, I can’t have her see me like this, I, please just,…” she stopped and looked as if she were about to cry. Women’s tears are the most evil things as far as I am concerned. They completely take my heart and remove all resolve. “She’s not coming today” I said softly. “What,..what did you say?” I took a deep breath and said more clearly, “She’s not coming today, I wanted to see how you would react and got more than I bargained for. Look, let’s make a deal. I will not let her see you like this, I will let you go today, however I am taking some pictures in just a minute and I will hide them before I release you. You will ease up on your discipline AND stop trying to break me. If you start that shit again we will have a slide show like no other. Are we in agreement?” While she thought about it I went and got my camera…
I decided I would not let her know what I was feeling inside and returned her icy gaze. Patting her lumpy diaper I said, “Maybe so, however it’s my turn now.” She started to drift a little as the sleeping pills we ground into her bottle started taking effect. She really was incredibly beautiful made more so by the vulnerability sleep imposed on her.
I stood there for an hour watching her sleep. Mandy came into the room after a while wondering what had happened to me. She kept vigil with me for a while, staring at the lovely Mona. “So, um, what is your next move then?” she asked. I told her I had no idea. For now I was just living in the moment. “She made it clear to me that her intent had been to break me down, make me be resigned to a life of her in charge and my just accepting what she did to me with out complaint. She was really trying to make me a baby again. I wanted her to know that I will not just submit and I have accomplished that. From here on it’s just a matter of enjoying it until it’s over. The one card I have to play yet is Sandy. I am betting that Mona would do just about anything to make sure that Sandy doesn’t see her this way. She'll threaten me with god knows what but I think she will, in the end, make a deal with me to release her before Sandy gets home.”
Mandy smiled and said, “You know, one night when they were talking I heard Mona say to her that she wouldn’t be caught dead doing what you do, meaning the diaper play, and found it all distasteful, except as a means to control you. So you may just be right.” I nodded and said, “I think we will find out by how the level of threats go up as we get closer to the time Sandy comes home. “
In the morning, Sandy called and asked to speak to Mona. I told she was all tied up at the moment. Considering the nature of their and our relationship, I was very surprised she didn’t read anything in to it. We talked about how her meetings were going and she said they were almost called off today due to some legal wrangling the client was doing and she wished they had been. She would have liked to come home early and surprise us. This gave me a great idea and I hurried the conversation along so I could try it out. We said our good byes and I rushed to the nursery to try it out.
I found Mona awake and in a foul mood. Her diaper was nearly bursting with the load she had deposited there and I couldn’t help myself, I just stood there and smiled. Remembering the nasty condition she had let me get into on many previous occasions, I felt vindicated. It was time to spring my little lie on her, “Good morning sleepy baby. I just got off the phone with Sandy, she’s on her way home cause they cancelled her meetings, she should be able to change you when she arrives!” I said with a cheerful grin.
I think I was right on the mark. She nearly screamed at me, “SHE WILL NOT! You will let me go this minute, “ her tone softening, “please, don’t do this, I can’t have her see me like this, I, please just,…” she stopped and looked as if she were about to cry. Women’s tears are the most evil things as far as I am concerned. They completely take my heart and remove all resolve. “She’s not coming today” I said softly. “What,..what did you say?” I took a deep breath and said more clearly, “She’s not coming today, I wanted to see how you would react and got more than I bargained for. Look, let’s make a deal. I will not let her see you like this, I will let you go today, however I am taking some pictures in just a minute and I will hide them before I release you. You will ease up on your discipline AND stop trying to break me. If you start that shit again we will have a slide show like no other. Are we in agreement?” While she thought about it I went and got my camera…