My Official Introduction

[SissyBabyJessica]

Hi Everyone,

I wanted to stop in and introduce myself to the group.

When I was about 5 or 6 years old, I remember having a friend about the same age. We used to role play with each other every day. I was the baby and she was the mommy. It did not involve anything except fantasy back then. No diapers, no baby food, no bottles, etc. By the time I was 12 or 13, we drifted apart and our baby games ended. – At least with her that is. I still had fantasies. But I was finding new desires…

When I was entering my early teen years, I discovered a desire to wear girl’s clothes. I used to sneak clothes out of my sister’s dresser and then head off to my bedroom to try them on. They never fit really well but I could get into them. I would stare at myself in my mirror and admire how pretty I looked in her clothes. When winter came, I would raid the summer clothes in the attic and vice versa in the summer for the winter clothes.

Wearing my sister’s clothes did not make my baby fantasies go away however. The two fantasies coexisted right alongside each other. I always wondered what it would be like to wear a diaper. I used to take bath towels from the closet and pin them on to myself like they were diapers. That didn’t satisfy my desires for very long.

I wondered what it would be like to wet in these make believe diapers. I fantasized about that every night for a long time. I did the thing with a glass of warm water trying to pour it down inside the front of my diaper. But that did not satisfy my fantasy desires.

Finally, the day came that I was going to give it a try. I pinned a towel to my bottom. It did not really fit right so I put on as many pair of underpants as I could under the diaper to add the feeling of thickness.

I lay down in my bed for about 2 or 3 hours and could not make myself wet. As soon as I climbed out of bed and stood up though, I could go with no problem. While I was standing up, they seemed to be holding the water ok without leaking. So, I climbed back into bed and went to sleep. The next morning, I woke up and my bed was wet. The “towel”-diapers and all those pairs of underwear released most of the pee that they were holding when I laid down with them between my body and the bed. It was like ringing out a washcloth. It holds water till you squeeze it then it all comes out.

I was worried about my mom finding out that I wet the bed. My sister did till she was 8 or 9 years old. My mom took her to a doctor that made some tests and said there was nothing wrong with her. I didn’t know what she would say or do if she found out. Actually, she didn’t do anything. She was sort of disgusted but she just let it go.

One day when I was babysitting for the two kids down the street, I stole three Pampers diapers from them and put them in my book bag. I don’t know what I was thinking I was going to do with them. The girl was two years old and I was about 16 or 17. I was a lot bigger than her. I figured I could somehow use them as stuffing inside a towel. Then the towel would basically just be like a diaper cover.

I planned to try it on the weekend. I drank lots of water before bed and managed to wet that night. The diaper did not retain the urine at all, it leaked all over the place. That time my mom did get mad and did take me to see the doctor. But nothing came of that.

A few years later, I read stories about kids who wet their beds on purpose so their parents put them back into diapers – that unfortunately did not happen to me.

I made one more attempt at using baby diapers. I bought the largest size I could find at Kroger. It took me a while to get the nerve to do that. I bought a lot of other junk in a naive attempt to camouflage the fact I was buying baby diapers. Well I got home and hid them in my room. Even this largest size did not fit me. I had to pay some tricks to get them to stay in position (sort of). How I wished that someone made “real” baby diapers in adult sizes.

In 1980, I joined the US Army and went to Germany for 4 years. Then I went to college for 2 years after that. I did not actively do anything related to my baby or girlie fantasies during those years. I lived in to close of quarters with other people and there seldom was any real time that you could count on remaining private. I was struggling with the idea that I might really be a transvestite (whatever that really was) and certainly I was weird when it came to this baby stuff. I did not want anyone to find out!

Correction: I did try on some of my moms and sisters clothes when I came home on breaks from the Army or College. But that was the only times.

Anyway in the mid 80’s I saw a Daytime talk show, (Oprah, I think – but not sure) and there were these people that called themselves “Adult Babies” on the show. That changed my life sort of. After seeing that show, my struggle intensified 10-fold. Not only was I struggling with my potential transvestitism, but now it occurred to me that there might really be something mentally wrong with me wanting to be a baby.

I began reading everything I could find and I took every psychology class I could find as an elective in school I was determine to figure out how to fix me without telling anybody (like a professional psychiatrist) what was wrong with me.

Toward the end of the 1980’s or early 1990’s, the Internet was starting to roll out to the general public. I soon found so much information that I no longer believed there was a major problem with me but I was still a bit strange. At least because of the internet, I knew there were lots of other people like me in this world.

One place I found rather quickly was Diaper Pail Friends (DPF) Here was an organization were every person in it was an AB/DL, yet I still could not get up the courage to register and meet some new friends. I did buy diapers, plastic pants, hypnotic tapes, and lots of baby clothes from them.
Starting about a year ago, I began buying disposable Bambino Bianco Diapers from The Bottom Half, group. They are a lot cheaper than the $40.00 each I was paying to DPF.

It took another 15 years to get the courage to actually register on this forum and Diaper Space and start meeting people. So, now I really am not alone. I am just another Baby Girl.

Well this went longer than I thought it would. But that is my story.

[baby sister katie]

Hewwo Baby Jessica ,welcome and I hope you find lots of ab fun here.

[SissyBabyJessica]

HI Katie,

This pwace is realy nice. I am having fun here and meeting a lot of really good people. Everyone is so nice.

Jessica

[DommyMommyScarlet]

Welcome Baby Jessica

[pinkluvs]

You are right. There sure are some nice people here. Welcome!